Feeling Desperate

Today has been a long day I have been having some anxiety of how im currently living my life. Im so thankful to have the opportunity to be able to stay at home enjoy my beautiful daughter but I would lie if I said I don't miss working I know you might be thinking this girl is crazy who wouldn't like to stay home with their child but in all reality is that when you are used to making your own money when you have been working for ten years and you reach that financial independence its hard to let go and be restrain and know be forced to live on a budget. 

I has been hard I used to be able to buy what I wanted and as an independent working women spend my paycheck in whatever I wanted with out having to tell anyone what I did with that money.   I lived with no limits I has anything and everything I wanted as far as material things go I had it all,  but so many things have changed in the past 18 months that all material things are no longer important to me none of them are. Since march 26 2012 I have been staying home with my daughter 24/7 I enjoy every minute of it since I did not get to do so when she was smaller, but I can't let go of that working women mentality that I have. My husband has been very supportive of this transition but sometimes I feel like im just the maid to be honest even though he tells me he appreciates everything I do something I just feel like the maid. 

I don't want to complain or make it sound like I want all material things back because I really don't I don't need them in my life I have so many more important people in my life that ill never loose. 

I guess what I really need and want is to be able to have some sort of financial independence, some income to come in money that I don't have to justify to anyone since I'll be making it my self. I've been thinking of making bows for little girls with matching tutus I don't I just need a hobby that will make me a little bit of money and keep my mind busy.

I don't know what im going to do,  but I just need that independence back so I can feel good again.

Thank you for stopping by this quiet afternoon,

Yamileth