WHEN ITS NEGATIVE

 We have been trying to become a family of 4 for the past 3 months and even though it has not been a long time it feel like an eternity for me its just been a disappointment I know that a lot of girls go through months and months but its just hard when you have so many people telling that its time that your daughter is already 4 its just to much pressure from family and friends. Its not that there being all mean about it but its just the random comments that they make here and there that are frustrating.  Lets begin from the beginning we begin trying to get pregnant in mid august, when I got my period in the beginning of September it was not a big deal since it had only been a couple of days,  then October came and its was the same my regular period just in time. Then came November and I had no period I was so happy because I thought we were pregnant and we all were just so excited, yamita begin telling me about the baby that was in my tummy with out her even knowing that we were trying we thought she could since that I was pregnant. Around mid month I decided to take a test since my period was late 2 weeks already but when I took that test it was negative I was devastated since I was sure it would be positive. Ten days later I take another test since my period was not coming and it was negative again at this point I felt so extremely sad and feeling like bad. The next day I get my regular period and of course this means that again I'm not pregnant this just makes me feel like I'm not good enough to carry another baby that I don't deserve to have another child.  I have faith now all we have to do is just keep going and just let god decide when the right time is for our family to grow and yamita to have a sibling.

Thanks for stopping by this quiet afternoon,