Late Nights

Once my husband and daughter are sleeping sometimes I stay up and watch them sleep I thank god for my family and I ask him to take care of them since they are my reason to live. I also think of my mom and my sister and how much I miss them, of everything I would give to have them by close by so there part of yamita's everyday life.  But they can't they are 1000 miles away in a different town living far away from yamita and me.  You see I only have one sister and my mom I never new my dad so they are all they have, I had never been far away from them this is the first time that I have not seen them in months and I miss them so much.  My little sister is my best friend we could talk for hours and we would not ever finish a conversation since we have so much to talk about, know shes married and has her own life.  Then there is my mom she is my hero she is the person that I look up to and wish that one day I can be half of the person she is, she has a great heart and to me there is no better mom than her. I miss them so much specially because I don't know when will I see them again it could be months or maybe years and that hurts me alot because I want them to be part of our life and some how have everything back to normal the way it used to be, but I know that's no longer possible our life's have taken different roads that we don't know if they will ever cross again.  I know that they will always be in my life but not being in the same town makes me feel like I'm losing them and even though I know they love me and my daughter so much is not the same as being a couple of minutes away from each other.  We have a couple of plans for the coming months and just to think that they will not be a part of them hurts my heart because they deserve to be part of them be a part of our life's but again its not happening they wont be able to be a part of any of it and in a way its my fault. All I pray for every night is for god to give me a second chance to be together with them one more time here in this town were we grew up and became who we are today that's all I ask.  

( Sorry but I'm a bit sentimental tonight)

Thanks for stopping by this quiet afternoon,

Yamileth